First Posting!

About me; My name is Marissa. I'm 20 years young and this is my second pregnancy. Although, I do not have a child at home. I had a loss in April 2010. His name is Daniel Jr. and he's my little angel up above. I do have another blog specifically for him. Okay so, I don't even know where to start. I'm pregnant with a "rainbow" baby, which means the pregnancy you have following a loss. Describing as the "rainbow" after a storm. As of right now, this blog is for me only. I have yet to share this with any personal friends and family since this pregnancy isn't going to be the most "accepting". It's sad, but that's how it is. I'm young, and my parents and family expect the best from me. I have no one to turn to really (except my BLM's), so that's why I created this blog. To let out all my feelings. When I found out, I had emotions up the wha-zoo. After having Jr., my thoughts and feelings over children have changed. Creating a tiny miracle, is so amazing. So when I had found out, I was happy yet very scared, nervous, and anxious. My parents weren't to happy about my first pregnancy with Jr. but they did learn to adjust after awhile. I'm scared out of my mind to tell them about this one too. I did make an appointment with my doctor for November 16th. I was a little frustrated since I had a loss, I wanted to be seen sooner. The lady said the doctor likes to wait until about 8 weeks or so, so they can hear the heartbeat. Okay, fine. I'm just nervous about what's going on inside. If everything looks okay. I decided to make another appointment at a Birth Choice Clinic. It's free, so why not? I got to make an appointment for November 9th. I guess that's a little  better. We'll see what's really going on. Until then, I'm not having any symptoms that stick out to me, except for a little frequent urination. That's all. Blah, this has been a crazy year!